This is worse than I thought (6/22/22)

My medical situation is far more serious than I thought.

I signed a document today that said it’s basically my body my choice to do dialysis but if I stop I will be choosing a guaranteed and rapid death.

Still hasn’t sunk in fully that if left untreated I was likely weeks from death. Really don’t know how to mentally cope with that.

Anyone who had a similar experience, please drop some advice/thoughts below.